I’m doing it a bit at a time… right now, I’m going to do flyball practice with the dogs! I’m not going to stress about this or rush. I’ll get it all done, even if it takes me a few weeks.

So I’ll be back posting in a bit, but if you wonder where I am.. I’m restoring!

It was fun.. this is a picture of when we got home. My Dad’s Blazer is very nice, I hope I got all the dog hair out of it… well, all that I could anyway. I do wish I had a camping vehicle like this, with the clearance, but only used for camping. If I get a minivan, which I’m thinking of doing, it might not have as much clearance as I’d like.

I contacted a lawyer today, too, about the car accident. Allstate still wants to repair my Outback. I still want a minivan. Maybe a South Carolina injury lawyer would help. I’m going to the doctor on Friday to get an opinion of my back and neck. When I was driving home my arms were going numb. And when I lay on my back my arms go numb still. Not a good thing at all.

The insurance said they will repair my car to factory specs. But I still have my doubts, and I’m not sure I’d feel safe in it anyway. And so… the car saga continues!

Last Friday the shop said my car wasn’t totaled. But today they called again and they have finished estimating the damage. They put it at $12,000. (my rental car probably isn’t worth that much).

I talked to my insurance adjuster, she said if the damage to the vehicle is 80% of the value of the vehicle, they consider it totaled. The damage to my car is 75% the value of it. So Allstate (my insurance) is sending someone down to the shop tomorrow to get their opinion. The adjuster said that it is very possible that the Allstate person will find that it is actually 80% damaged and if so, then it’s totaled.

Oh joy. It freaks me out, still, that the accident was that bad. My poor car. I’m still waffling between wanting a new car, and wanting my old car back. I am liking my insurance company, though. Auto insurance comparisons are helpful too. But the real money is in how the company handles a car wreck.

So maybe I’ll know over the next few days. I guess I can have some serious things going on physically, if the car was hurt that bad. EEEEEeek.

Tonight I’m nauseous, I’ve had a rotten headache most of the day (I do NOT get headaches), my neck hurts and is popping, and when I lay flat on my back my left arm goes numb.

I think a lot of this has to do with the accident. Especially the left arm numbness and the headaches. Oh yeah, I’m occasionally dizzy. And I know I wasn’t dizzy before the accident at all. Nor was I nauseous, nor did my left arm go numb. Nor did I get headaches. My neck hurt… and popped, but none of the other things.

So now I have to get up the guts to call the chiropractor, work out the billing, and tell them it’s just not working the way I had hoped. I know it works for other things, and that’s fine, but just not for me right now. I feel guilty, though… the anxiety kicks in. I feel like I’ll piss them off or hurt their feelings or some stupid thing. I hate having to do this. But I’ve got to suck it up and call them in the next couple of days and tell them I’m not going to come back. Dammit, where is my spine!

I want to go to another doctor. Not sure if I should go to an orthopedic doctor, or my family doctor, or maybe a neck and back specialist. I don’t like feeling this way and I want to do something about it. The nausea is really bugging me, so is the dizziness. And the neck pain, of course. And I don’t sleep on my back too often, but I don’t like it that my arm goes numb when I am just laying flat on my back!

So here I go, trying to stiffen up my spine, and do something. Bleh. I just wish all doctors were holograms or computers, then I would be able to face them better! I hate having things wrong with me. I hate admitting that I’m human, and thus I can have weaknesses and am not always strong and completely whole. And I’m older now too, and the body doesn’t bounce back like it once did.

Anyway… I was sitting in the ring today setting jump bars, and it’s a USDAA trial so I’m not as familiar with when to set the triple and double and table… and I’d set something and the judge, who was really on top of things, went and reset my stuff a couple of times because I didn’t get it right.

Well, my old anxiety kicks in, I feel like an idiot, I think everyone is going to hate me and think I’m stupid… and so I had to sit there with myself for a while and try to understand why I’m feeling this. Because most of the time at trials, even when I make a mistake, I don’t feel that anymore.

So I remembered yesterday and how I wasn’t feeling good all day. And I haven’t been feeling good most of the week. It could be the Isagenix… but I doubt it. I’m done with my 9 day cleanse and it went well. But I really think that I’m thrown off because of the car accident. And I have been having these rotten headaches, i have one again now, and they just don’t want to go away. Bah. I hate headaches.

So I think there is something going on with me still, be it the accident or be it just that I’m stressed and not feeling well. It’s only Day six today, so I’m in a good place hormonally. Maybe I am catching a cold… maybe I’m in a summer funk and I could use a change of weather. But I really don’t want it to get cold. I like the summer!

Tomorrow I’m getting up kinda early again, but not as early. Only about 7:30 so that’ll be good. Going to practice obedience in the morning, then come home and maybe I’ll just go back to bed. I am tired of pushing myself to the edge… I’d rather take care of myself and slow down and relax. If my body and mind are telling me to slow down, then I’m gonna slow down.

Heck, I like being slow and relaxed, so that’s what I’m gonna do!

I didn’t know this was such a weight on me until it lifted today. I’ve been looking around for cars even! Thought maybe a minivan would be better for me, but I do love my Outback and I want to keep it for 10 more years! Hopefully it is done being in wrecks. Bah. This is the worst one of the three it’s been in in it’s short four years of life. The darn car is only a 2004. And isn’t too high in mileage either. It has maybe about 48,000 miles on it or so.

Maybe I need some new picture frames so I can take pictures of my wrecked car. Or better yet, my repaired car. It is a pretty car, and I do like it very much! I don’t know when the repairs will be done, but maybe it’ll be ready for when I go to St. George in September. I sure hope so!

My GPS came today.. well, it’s at home. I love electronic deals and I can’t wait to go and play with it! I have a chiropractor appointment tonight in a bit, so I have to do that before I get home. But he’ll check me out. My head aches are still pretty bad. A personal injury lawyer replied to my online help request, said they won’t even take a case until I exceed $3,000 in medical bills. Oh well, I doubt that will happen.

But dangit, I don’t want to have to buy a new car. I’d probably get another Outback… but I’d also consider a Volvo wagon. Depends on the cost. We really can’t afford a new car right now, with car payments. If only our house was paid off. We only have $28,000 left on the dang house! Bleh again!

I had a good read last night and fell asleep about 8:30ish. It was nice, I didn’t die getting up this morning, either. Usually I detest getting up in the mornings. And Tatum slept with me all night, which was very sweet indeed!

I’ve been Entresurfing a bit using their new Entrebar. Nice thing that is. Keeps me from thinking. I want to go home and read my book some more. I’m actually reading a real live book. I haven’t done that in a long time. I’ve been listening too books on CD but I thought a real reading book would be nice for a change. It’s a Robin McKinley book, and I do love her. Dragonhaven. Started off pretty slow but it’s good now and I want to go see how it works out!

So now I get to force myself to drive home… I’m going to get a rental car tomorrow. Oh joy. I hate rental cars. I have no bond with them.

They have coupons right now that you can use… for the stamps: Stamps50 - 50% Off Small Rubber Stamps, which is a great idea. I’d love to get some of these for the flyball team, too. I love self iking stamps and I’d love to stamp everything and everyone on the forehead with a stamp… LOL, but people don’t usually like that too much.

I haven’t been in much of a blogging or working mood for the last couple of days, just in a surfing mood and a reading mood. So really if you want good quality merchandise with your logo on it, Vista Print really is a good company. I have bought from them before, and I plan to buy from them again.

Yesterday I worked from home, so I didn’t have to go anywhere, that was nice. This morning I cried all the way from home to 100 S where the accident happened, afraid that someone was going to appear out of nowhere and hit me. Ugh.

I made it to work okay. And I decided to get a rental car. I am in my husband’s car for now, but I am going to need a car of my own. He goes out and does work for his old job sometimes and if the dogs need to go to the vet, he’ll need a car. Plus, I’m going to Idaho Falls in a couple weeks, pulling the trailer up, and I’ll need something that can pull the trailer. And the other lady’s insurance just better pay for the whole dang rental!

Still no estimate on my car, though. Hopefully later today.